Yeaaa, I hit Rock Bottom.

June 29, 2018, the day before my 34th birthday I read a letter to my friends (over tacos of course) saying that pretty much I was miserable, burnt out, quitting everything and that I was moving out of the state and not telling anyone where I'm going. Pretty dramatic huh? Yet that was the decision I made, I just wanted change, real change.

I recently decided to close my spa business, my finances were at its lowest (basically living day by day, tell that story another time), my relationship was, I don't know the word for it, I guess unpredictable (that's also another post, but we are good though lol) my career...what career at this point. My body, flub. Mental state, sad, stressed, confused and tired. I was done and could no longer push, fight for my goals, nada, zilch, over it all. So for a few months, 90% of my time was spent at home alone watching Netflix, eating whatever and in my own world of confusion.

The point of me sharing this misery with you is, to try to prevent you from getting to that low point or help you get out of it. Also, a reminder that social media never shows you the entire picture. If you would have looked at my IG you would think I was doing fine.

Thankfully, one night God said what happened to the original plan? Friends, I was searching and praying for answers and signs on what to do next and in that very moment when I heard those words it was like a smack to the face. I realized I lost focus, gained many distractions and got myself so busy that I lost sight of what I was even trying to accomplish in life. So I looked over my habits, my mental thought process, my decisions, and pretty much dissected my life and who I was at that moment. I had to be real with myself and look at my wins, my losses, and my actions. It was a painful experience that needed to happen. Which brings me back to June 29th, the decision was made to change everything and to go back to my goals with my non-profit Defining Movement and become the Joleen Rose I've always wanted to be.

This is where this blog begins, I'll be sharing with you all the challenges I had to face after making that decision, the changes I actually made and what I am still working on. I also want to share my journey as an entrepreneur because even though I got to a place I didn't want to be in I did a lot of amazing things and learned a lot of life lessons. Success is a JOURNEY, not a destination and I want you to go through life succeeding and maybe sharing my mistakes can help. I'm now in a state of happiness and boldness that feels so new, refreshing and powerful and it feels so good to be me...finally!

With that being said I'll be dropping a new blog post every Tuesday and giving you a tip, a challenge, honestly not sure what to call it but for now, it is something to think about (I tried to come up with a hashtag but I don't have the right one yet lol).

Something to think about:

Start off by being thankful for what you have and then take some time to really check the status of your life. Do a self-check-up. How do you feel about where you are right now and check to see if you are in alignment with your goal(s). I'll be posting more about this on my IG stories @queen_joleen check it out.

I would love to hear your goals and if you have any unique hashtags let me know!

With love,

Joleen Rose

p.s. Oh I really did try to move but glad it didn't work out. Thank you to my family and friends for all the love and support during those rough times. I love you.